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[Friday,
June 3rd, 2005]

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[Sunday,
May 22nd, 2005]
[ mood | cranky ]

pictures from last night.Collapse )

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[Wednesday,
May 4th, 2005]

SO this is going to be a public entry.

because there is ALOT of shit I need to get off my chest.

Some people really need to revalute their prorities in life.

and GET OVER THEMSELVES!

Being a slut dosen't get you anywhere in life..

 

 

SO other than that stupid shit.

MY FUCKING FISH DIED

what the fuck.

and i have to go to my dads house tommarow.

akldjfakljdsfhakjsdfh

FUCKKKKKKKK THISSSSSSSSSS

and YOU.

 

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[Tuesday,
April 12th, 2005]

 

 

so im deleting all my friends. seriosly. if you actually want to read this. comment and i will probably add you.

 

 

 

unless your a bitch.

 

thnx

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[Tuesday,
April 12th, 2005]
one and three, you're here
(one and three, you're here
to tell me we can't do this)
to tell me we can't do this
(three for three, i'll disagree)
anymore
your hair and face against the mirror
as i take the steps to save what's left of me
someone's out when it's over
people steal from you
and they take anything they choose
it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
but there's choices to make
can't decide, then look at the faces
candlelight
we're burning the pages
but ask us why
and hurting ourselves with this false start
resign yourself
and always be (and we pretend)
without the one (it simply gets easier)
thing you need (but it doesn't get easier)
reading words with no replies
when we have these mornings where we can say goodbye
i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight
i won't
answer
dancing under starlight glow
no one in the city knows
confidence can take you
nerves try to shake you
from going all the way
it's not that far
it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
there's choices to make
we watch the tide roll in
with cold air and coffeecake
holding our words at list
stopping the sounds they make
we know the way to go
we know each step to take
to be here
these words with no replies
stopping we's and starting i's
this need is killing me
and taking me over
i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight


i fucking knew something like this was going to happen.

just like it did last year.

next year around this time..

well
never mind

bye
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[Sunday,
April 10th, 2005]
hyperventalating.
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[Saturday,
April 9th, 2005]
so.





today.
nesh came over. and i ate chiken and we took alot alot of pictures.

than matt came in his 1994 nissan pathfinder(hahahha)and i dont knwo nesh decided to go home:-/

than matt and i went to the park and swung on the swings.

than we went to his house and watched grind.

it was a good movie.

well. have a good night.

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[Friday,
April 8th, 2005]
angry.

horrible friday.

horrible.
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[Friday,
April 8th, 2005]
so
i
hate
when
this
happens













oh well megan and alex(s) are coming over tonight.
im quite happy with that!!!!
i love those girls.














if you would like to join our get-toghther.

call my moms.
kay bye
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[Thursday,
April 7th, 2005]

Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air, When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far...From here.

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Come back to me, To me.

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Back to me, To me.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.

Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so...Far!...

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[Thursday,
April 7th, 2005]
matthew knows i love him.

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[Thursday,
March 31st, 2005]
my new layout rocks.


yesss

i went to subway.

gosh.. i feel sick.

blah
okay.

well have a good rest of spring break everyone.

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[Tuesday,
March 29th, 2005]

meghan is the coolest person alive.

 

the end

 

"i guess i rocked your chair pretty hard"

 

gosh i love her.

 

THE END.

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[Monday,
March 28th, 2005]
cuntfaces-sluts-assholes



please go jump off a bridge.


thnx.
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[Saturday,
March 26th, 2005]

so, havent updated in awhile. thursday:drama but ended up okay.

friday:shopped today:dad decided he was going to buy a new car, hes getting it on wenesday. i saw jens mom

JEN CALL ME. please

. kthnx .

 than...

 thats it

 tommarow's easter.

 call me

im free most of spring break, cept for next weekend. :-( i dont wanna go.

 

 ILU

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[Tuesday,
March 22nd, 2005]
[ mood | crushed ]

I'll leave the lights down low
so she knows I mean business
And maybe we could talk this over
Cause I could be your best bet
Let alone your worst ex

And let alone your worst...

I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't (but I can't) stop this
anymore than you can


So honestly, how could you say those things
when you know they don't mean anything

And you know very well
that I can't keep my hands to myself,
hands to myself

I wanna hate you so bad
But I can't (but I can't) stop this
anymore than you can

This is all wrong and it shows
There's certain things I promised not to let you know,
(I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the edge of my seat,
I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the...)
not to let you know
I never, never...

You've got this silly way
of keeping me on the edge of my seat
But you're only counting the clock against the train
And I'm miserable, oh
(I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the edge of my seat,
I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the...)
And you're just getting started
I'm miserable, oh

You've got me right where you want me
(let's never talk) Let's never talk, let's never,
let's never talk about this again because...
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me
I didn't want it to mean that much to me

Anyway... yeah

 

 

 

 

gosh.

bad mood.

 

peace

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[Sunday,
March 20th, 2005]
"I want all of you...forever...you and me"
^the notebook^


gosh. buy me that movie.

thnx
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[Sunday,
March 20th, 2005]
jen asks me why i hate love

xtbs x3: it always ends up with the words hate and pain after it
buryxmexinxblack: tell me about it
xtbs x3: tell you about what
buryxmexinxblack: no, i'm just saying i understand where you're coming from kindof tell me about it
xtbs x3: becuase everytime someone says they love you, they build up your hopes.. to a better releshonship/friendship... it solitfies how you feel about someone, and if anything ever goes wrong, your going to think about when the "l" word came up and be even more hurt than you would have been if that would have not been said.. like if you love someone for ever.. and your married, have kids, retired, adn than your loved one dies. your going to be in imence pain for as long as you live.. even if you hide it.. your going to hate someone.. may it be your loved one, god, the person who did it..
xtbs x3: okay. i tried to explain it

thats why.
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[Saturday,
March 19th, 2005]
i went to shopko today, and got new eyeliner and face stuff.

dad"why do i end up buying you makeup everytime we come here"

me"because im poor"

i think thats the only time we talked today.


than i sat on my ass untill 5.
babysat.

watched the incredibles and ate batman fruit snacks.


its weird, my left hand is warm, but my right hand is like ice.

oh. yeah last night i went to morp, i just wore my snowball dress because, i dont know.

than went to kats house after and watched degrassi.

oh and before that and morp we went to china buffet, and their was like a billion little kids there looking at waving at kat, because she was dressed up like tinkerbell, adn i think they really thought that she was tinkerbell, and ohohohoh i saw meggie and chritt.

i love meggie

i met katie a. shes nice.

haha they all told me i have NO standerds.

oh well.


i want to go shopping tommarow, or just get out of this house.

peace.

man this entry is really hard to follow. oh well.
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